MARIAM FAILS AT LIFE

I've said it already before, but get well soon Sawnah!!!! <3

Anyway, how is everyone doing? :>

I miss spamming you girls. :'D

Anyone going anywhere for the winter holidays?

D: FEEL BETTER SANNA!

welllll- not going anywhere per-say but I have people coming here- if you guys know BlehxIshxMe and RyanRoxas123 there coming here to spend a week with me and it's really exciting .

but thats it. which is pretty much fine for me because yeah. xD
What about everyone else?

I'm back, alive & kicking. :D

So I guess we're not doing that christmas MEP huh xD

I'm staying home this Christmas, 6 days after Christmas it'll be my birthday so party like there's no tomorrow o/
But after the new year, I'm going to visit a friend ^^

Yay for your recovery!!!! <3 <3 <3

Oh my, you're just short of being a New Year baby, Sawnah! I think it's actually pretty cool that your birthday is the last day of the year.

As for me, I'm chilling here in the Philippines, hanging out with my cousins and being devoured by the mosquitoes. The first part's pretty great--the second, not so much. >_>

MERRY CHRISTMAS GIRLS!! <3 <3 <3

And even if you don't celebrate the holidays, well everyday's an excuse to party anyway. XD

Aaaaand, lovin' the new layout. :>

I'm glad you like it. >w< I tried to go with something more crimson flowery but all I could find was pink flowery and that didn't look good. So I went with blue. xD

It's very pretty!

Happy holidays girls! 8D

You girls probably aren't looking for a mood-killer of a post, but...I got my heart broken today.

And well, that's a big deal for me, because I'm one of those people who waits and waits and waits and just guards their heart like it's fucking glass, and for the very first time, I let myself fall in love.

And dammit, it's just so bad--like, I am convinced there is no one else for me. We've been friends for years, we know all of each other's secrets, I can be as candid with them as I want, and even though we're on opposite sides of the world, we both influence each other's daily lives extensively.

And I was already prepared to let them follow their dreams, because it's so much different than mine, and if it meant not being with them, then I'd still rather they go after their dream--because it's beautiful, and it inspires me.

But I wasn't prepared to hear that they're currently interested in someone. I'm so glad we weren't video-chatting when they said it, because I don't know how I could've played it cool.

I'm the kind of person who really takes love seriously--if I can't have my soulmate, I'd truly, honestly have no one at all, ever. I don't want to settle, because that's not fair, to either person involved. And they're it.

I'm also the kind of person who thinks everything through--I'll go between my heart and my head, and make sure both are in-synch, and I'll make sure that what I want is really what I want. I have never been more sure of anything in my entire life--THEY. ARE. IT.

Just--UGH, SHIT, it hurts.

(I'll be fine girls, I really will. Eventually. Life will go on, and the feelings are enough, because I'll still love them, no matter what, and they will still inspire me, and I will still have meaning in life. I just won't be sharing it with them.)

(No, really, I'll be okay. I just...needed to rant about it, I suppose. I actually do feel a little better now.)

Aah, that sounds really awful

I know how it feels to have someone who you think is the one not feel the same way about you, and it's just so downright heartbreaking, which is really unfair.

I hope, that somehow things will work out, and if it doesn't then I hope (am pretty sure of it even) that you'll find someone else!

Take care dear! <3

Yeah it sucks, but I'll get through it, some how (mostly because I just want them to be happy, and that's enough for me).

Thank you for the sympathy, it does help.

I started watching Dr. Who yesterday with my sister when she found me crying in my room, and she played with my hair for four hours straight, which always makes me feel better. That was nice, and reminded me that I still have so many people I love in my life, and I'm very thankful for that. And even if my relationship with that person isn't quite what I'd like it to be, I think what we do still have is very special--they're my best friend in the world, and I'm theirs, and I know for a fact that we'd do anything for each other. I'm very grateful for that, at least.

And you girls--I have you girls. <3

I'm sorry for what you're going through, Neriede. Believe me, I've been there and I can relate. But all I can say is that it'll pass with time, all wounds heal and you'll get over it. And we're all still young, right? If he doesn't feel the same way, maybe it just wasn't meant to be and you'll find someone else. The whole idea of a soulmate is that it's mutual.

Thank you Sawnah--you're right, I will heal. I'm usually good at bouncing back from whatever life throws at me--I'm just still in the hurt stage and I'm letting it run its due course.

Actually, I don't even know if they feel the same way or not--I never actually told them how I feel. Mostly I think the reason I'm so upset is because I was kind of planning on asking them out...and then this happened. *sighs*

On the bright side of things though, Dr. Who is brilliant. I don't know why I didn't start watching it sooner.

aww D: i'm sorry dear. Like everyone's said you'll heal everything will work out.

and some day you'll find some hot someone out there who totally wants your bones. >D.
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ahem. and dude- Doctor Who makes life a millions times better. ...unless it's those certain moments where shit goes down and all you pretty much do is curl in a ball and cry 'whyyyyyyy do you hate me!?'
..other then that it's godsent.
^-^

Thanks Momo. <3

I'm doing good, just got back from Okinawa and am DEAD tired, but I had a BLAST with my students. Life is good, and they give me a reason to keep going. <3

Them, and Doctor Who. XD

Good to hear that you're feeling better! <3

aww, neriede i'm sorry i wasn't around when you were feeling so low sweetie, but i'm glad your feeling a bit better, because you deserve to be nothing but happy. eurgh i love all of you girls and just want you all to always be happy!~
anyway i want to apologise for not being around girls, i know i've let you all down by not being here and dropping mep parts and things and thats not usually me, i mean i know i'm slow but i've never really been one to completely drop the ball before and i'm really sorry that girls! it's been a tough month and i'm still not 100% but i'm feeling better, so i'm just really sorry for not being around. AND AGAIN I LOVE YOU ALL and hope i haven't missed anything big for any of you, SO WHAT YOU ALL BEEN UP TOO WHILE I'VE BEEN BEING A CRAPPY ABSENTEE VEE? XD <3333

I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK WE MISSED YOU SO MUCH WE ALMOST DIED WHEN YOU WEREN'T HERE


And holy shit my finals start this Friday and last all the way to the end of March (long study breaks, woo), which means that if they go well, I'm finally graduating!
Took me long enough <___<;;

Aw, don't worry Vee, everybody gets some freebies in life, because seriously, nobody's perfect and life can throw some tough times on anyone.

I'm just glad you're baaaaaack. <3

And congrats on graduating Sawnah!

I'm so glad to see that you're back Vee! We've all missed you tons! <3 Hopefully you're feeling a bit better now

Also, congratulations on graduating Sanna!

Hoping to get some life pumping in the spam section again. XD

So guess what girls!

I went off-base today and got the Final Mix editions of Kingdom Hearts I and II!!!

I'm so flipping excited right now, I can't even, just jl;ksdajfi;sljfa;sldkhas;lfjadlfk.

I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, THOSE GAMES ARE FUCKING SEXY AS HELL, IF I SEND YOU MONEY CAN YOU GO BUY THEM FOR ME TOO AND SEND THEM TO FINLAND I AM TOTALLY SERIOUS. :D I only have them on burned CD's Dx I WANT THE ORIGINALS XD

The cover arts are BEAUTIFUL!!! *o*

And if I knew how you could send me money, since I have no idea how to do it electronically, and sending money through the mail is illegal, I would TOTALLY get you some copies, Sawnah!

How about for your birthday or something? When is it? :3

Because I totally owe you--remember that postcard you asked me to send you that one time I went to Hawaii?

Well, since my parents didn't trust me with the post office, I asked them to mail it for me.

Guess what I found in their room today. ಠ_ಠ

xD hahah, wow, epic parents. :D

But umm, I could transfer the money through PayPal if you have that. xD It's like a worldwide bank, I use it for online shopping mostly, but I'm pretty sure the Final Mixes online are more expensive than they are in Japan. Course, I can't be sure.

And my birthday WAS two months ago ;__; December 30th. xD

No way you "owe me", at least not enough to waste money on me D:

Lol, yeah, I love my parents, they can be cute sometimes, but I was still pretty upset. XD

But I have no idea how PayPal works. ;__;

I'll ask my parents if they have one.

The games were actually very reasonably priced--they were both around 1200 yen, which is about 15 US dollars each. How much would that be in your currency? Now I'm all interested to know.

I'm definitely going back to that store--I saw all four Starry Sky games, which my friend recommended to me. I've never really been one for otome games, but maybe I'll start playing just so I can improve my Japanese. :3

And oh geez, that's right, your birthday WAS a few months ago, how could I forget???

Don't feel too bad though, since I tend to forget people's birthdays, since my sense of time is really bad. Half the time I can't even remember how old I am. ^^; *is being really, really serious*

15$?! o__o THAT'S LIKE 10€ >__<; THAT'S NOTHING! CURSE YOU CHEAP JAPAN AND EXPENSIVE ONLINE STORES.

Paypal is easy and safe and epic. You create an account online and when you want to shop online, you simply transfer money from your account to the Paypal account. It won't be able to access YOUR personal account, so you only transfer as much as you want and the rest of your money stays nicely on your own account. I've used it for years now and I love it. ^^ And you can easily transfer money from Paypal to another Paypal, and withdraw it to your own bank account from there.
But if you don't have one, I definitely won't talk you into it. xD

But *cries*
The Final Mixes are like 30€ online, add to that the shipping costs and *cry* it's not THAT much, but it's still a lot, especially since I want both 1 & 2. >.<; Not to mention all the other games I'd love in Japanese, like Fatal Frame I-III xDD But all I can find online for THOSE are ugly PLATINUM covers and I want the originals <.<